1st month

My first month in this world was interesting… I went home with mummy and papa after 2 nites at the hospital. They were excited to bring me home but I cant seem to share their joy as I feel so tired all the time and I just want to sleep. I was put into my own cot once we got back and I hear a lot more of voices other than mummy’s and papa’s.

I was handled more by Ah Por when it came to my cleanliness and boy do I hate it! It makes me so cold all the time and my attempts to tell Por Por that just seems futile and I understand it makes mummy and papa panicky from all my screaming. At nights, it was more of mummy and papa handling me and that also I hate it. It only feels good when I’m in mummy’s arm, all warmed up and it’s time for feeding again.

The first few days at home, mummy was waking me up every 2-3 hours to feed but I’m just too lazy to open my eyes or suck. I only wake up when I’m really hungry and mummy complaints that I drinks too little. Seems that mummy wasn’t getting enough rest from all these (her paranoia again) and she caught the cough from papa who was already sick before I came out. Then I got the cough too just a week old and it made mummy’s heart ache to see me coughing. Well, it doesn’t seem to bother me coz I go back to sleep after I coughed.

I had to go back on the 5th day for a checkup and it seems I had jaundice and needed to be hospitalized under the UV light. Was there for one and a half days and mummy and papa were with me too. I had to be stripped down to my diapers only with this eye mask over my eyes and was put under this bright bluish light. When the doc gave the green light for me to go home, mummy was so relieved coz she was unhappy with the service she got. Doc said that I need to be exposed to the morning sun still to bring down the jaundice level and told mummy not to eat any ginger. Papa got upset when the next few days were cloudy and it was raining too. So the next best solution was to leave me in my cot next to the window in their room. When the sun finally came up after several days, Por Por took me for morning walks. At times I like it, at times I didn’t and I had to voice out my dissatisfaction.

As I was heading towards my 3rd week and the cough doesn’t seem to want to go away, my nose begin to feel more stuffy and it was hard to breathe at times. And then I became really hot one night and it scared both mummy and papa. They were monitoring me that nite and my temperature went up to 38 degrees. The next morning my fever was still high and I was brought to another hospital, one that is closer to home. We waited for quite a bit for our turn and it seems my temp went up to 38.8 then. Finally, I got to see the doc and after checking me, he told mummy and papa that I need to be admitted as I was still too young and too small. So in the hospital once again and this time I had it much worst! They had to insert this needle into my right hand and I was given a few jabs every 6 hours into this needle. It was so painful that I have to scream. Mummy stayed with me again that 2 nights and she was always there when I was in pain. As much as she was trying to comfort me each time, I still cannot understand why I had to be in pain. My fever went down and up in that 2 nights and finally was stable towards the end and the doc said it was ok to go home. The tests that were done on me were all ok, much to mummy’s and papa’s relief.

I was supposed to have a full moon do during Chinese new year (cny) and this was in plan before the nightmare started. But due to me being so sensitive to the germs around me, mummy and papa decided not to do anything other than to give ppl stuff. Besides, the doctor advised them not to expose me too much. Grandpa told mummy to bring me over and hang out at his place on the first day of cny which we did and I was asleep the whole time we were there other than to get up to drink.

Seems I became rich after cny…relatives and friends of mummy’s and papa’s were giving me money! So cool! And I received gold too! Wonder if I ever get to wear them.

Ah Por and Ah Kong left back to Penang on the 4th day of cny. Mummy was grateful to have Ah Por around the whole month although she found Ah Por at times over smothering her. I find Ah Por entertaining…she has the loudest voice I have come across so far. Whenever she takes care of me, she will be talking to me in Chinese of course. She can go on and on and I cant help but just look at her till I fall asleep. And it’s interesting to hear Ah Por’s and Ah Kong’s conversation. I’m not sure if they’re talking normally or fighting… when they left, the house became quiet and it was just me with mummy and papa.

my life journey begins

Mummy doesn’t know if it’s from all that walking she did the day before I came out to this world that made me er…well, came out to this world. All I know is that I was still comfortably warm and snuggly in my own world when I realized the space I was in was getting tighter and tighter. Amidst all the talking (not just mummy’s but others too), screaming and crying (mummy’s…funny though she wasn’t talking anymore by this time), I felt my surroundings were caving in on me and the next thing I knew, I was being forced through a very tight passage into a very cold room.

I was being handled quite roughly and boy was it cold that I heard myself trying to say something but was just a mere cry! I heard someone saying “don’t u want to kiss your baby” and I felt a light touch on my right cheek. After all that handling, I heard a voice saying that I’m 2.5kgs..oh no, not 2.5 but 2.3kgs which later I found out made mummy totally shocked (her weight issues again) as 2.3kgs is just over 5 pounds. Her doctor lied! So it was all mummy’s weight…well the most of the 21kgs she has gained anyway. Poor mummy!

Anyway, when I felt all warm again except for my face…it was interesting to feel my nose breathing in cool air. So different. I was finally carried to mummy and was given some food. Somehow I find myself suckling on mummy and there was a warm feeling towards it especially when the warm liquid from mummy came out. I finally got to see what the outside world looks like but everything seems so blur then. I recognized mummy and papa for sure but there were so many people after that that came and went. I was too tired to focus that I was asleep most of the time only to be rudely waken again in between.

In short, I came out at 9.28am on new year’s eve, 31 December 2005. and now my life in this world begins…

more aches and food

Doc says I’m 6 pounds already, much to mummy’s surprise and then he shocked her further by saying that I should be 7 pounds when I come out full term. Is this a lot? I hear mummy has been complaining how heavy she is with her back aches and leg aches…she must be really fat now. But that doesn’t stop her from eating also, according to papa that is. I heard him saying that mummy complaints about being fat a lot and yet she still eats.

I get all the delicious nutrients from her eating… it was the Christmas weekend I hear and boy was there a lot of food coming my way. Yum yum…the best was on Christmas day where there was a lot of variety I had.

Mummy is really moving a lot in her sleep at night. She says she cant sleep properly now coz of all the aches she’s having. So when she moves, I also move. She’s been telling me to face down and towards her back when I’m ready to come out. How do I know whether I’m ready or not to come out?! She says it’s another 3 weeks or so more and yet I hear her saying it can also be anytime now. Hmmm… oh well, we are seeing the doc quite frequently now and since mummy has been having her cramps everyday, she’s thinking of going to see the doc earlier than scheduled. I don’t like the doc visits coz I get pressed down on a lot especially when I’m trying to have a good slumber rest. I think mummy and papa enjoys it coz I can hear how excited they are when they see me…how do they see me when I cannot see them? Hmmm…

On Christmas eve night, mummy had a scare in the middle of her sleep. She said she woke up with a sharp tummy pain that feels like a tummy ache cum period cramps. She thought that she was in labour but didn’t feel any contractions. So she couldn’t sleep after that coz of the pain, number 1 and then the thought that she hasn’t packed her hospital bag yet. In that afternoon, she started packing it seems but it’s not quite fully packed yet. And the next day, she did my laundry. She must be panicking coz she’s moving about a lot. Wonder if I will be as panicky as her or not when I grow up.

my first car

Papa’s gotten me a car already it seems! He keeps saying it… and I cannot wait to see it. Mummy’s not too happy with the colour though but heard her saying it’s way better than the other colour, which is bright red. She’s just lazy to wash it often since it can easily be dirtied. Papa was testing it when he got home from the shop and now he has a habit of looking at other ppl’s cars when he goes out, comparing I guess or to justify the amount he has just spent! My car is now in front of the fish tank and papa said he can put me there to look at the fishes when I’m ready for the car. Wonder what he means that he is the one driving it, why I cannot drive it?!

Heard both of them saying that they’re spending a lot on me this month and mummy added that it will be more next month when I come out. Well, the fact that I’ve been stuck in here for the last 8 months and another month or so to go, I think the preparation of my arrival should be well spent! Get ready world for here I come!

baby talk

My mummy is getting paranoid. She thinks just because I was very active lately, I should be active all the time. So when I don't move, she starts to worry. But I do move!!! Infact, I feel it is hard to move with so less of a space lately...where has all my freedom of movement gone to?!!!

I think we're seeing the Doc tomorrow...mummy has been talking about it. With her paranoia, i think she listed down the stuff she wants to ask the doc. Let see if she remembers to ask all of them. hehe...mummy thinks too much that at times she forgets what she actually wanted to ask or do in the first place. hope i got better memory than her when i grow up.

Papa was away yesterday, he went up to Penang again. He always go there it seems. Mummy used to complaint but not anymore coz she gets the whole bed to herself when papa is gone. And also the fact that she doesnt have to listen to his snores at night. I like papa's snore...it keeps me entertained at night. But it does get on mummy's nerves now and then when she is trying to sleep. Especially lately since I keep her awake at nights...must be the added weight she keeps complaining about. Wonder what she looks like before the added weight.

Papa came back just now and he was complaining of a headache he got. Thought he would be talking and playing with me tonight but no such luck. He is in bed right now sleeping. Poor papa, must be all the driving he has been doing. He brought back some curtains from Penang that Ah Por sewed. Mummy freaked out coz she thought it was just one colour and not with patterns. Ah Por made 2 sets...one for the living room and the other for my room! I like my curtains coz it's really very baby-ish and mummy doesnt mind it since it is meant for the baby room she says. But the other one, she said she wont want it up for chinese new year and papa said then used it now. Mummy won't hear of it coz chinese new year is just next month. Wonder how mummy will get away with it.

finally my own blog!

Finally mummy has decided to start on my blog after thinking or rather procastinating it for so long….i guess she realised that I’m about to come out to this world soon. And if she doesn’t get it started, she just may never will and of course, she will live to regret it later like always. Hah. That’s my mummy for you.

I’m very active these days, that’s what my mummy thinks anyway. She’s complaining that I should come out earlier although I’m due in 6 weeks time. Heard yesterday she was saying I’m getting heavier. Wonder what that means but I feel my space in here is getting tighter and tighter. I mean, I need my stretching exercise don’t I?

2 nights ago, heard my papa talking to me and I think touching me too. I was moving about while mummy and papa was watching tv I think. Papa was saying why my moving about is so weird…what is so weird about it?!! Like I said, I need my stretching.

Mummy talks to me more than papa and I hear mummy complaints to papa now and then to talk to me but he only say things like “Baby”, “why you make mummy so uncomfortable” and at times in some weird foreign language which I’ve not heard from mummy before. Wonder what is that? but mummy always say speak in chinese so I think that must be it.

Papa likes to play music from his phone…doraemon and some baby gibberish stuff. It used to entertain me but not anymore…I like to sleep to it now. But it sure disturbs me at times. Guess my non-reaction to these made papa play it lesser to me nowadays.