Sunday, January 20, 2008

Mummy’s entry – Rants of a mother

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It is obvious that I do not have the time to blog lately …so many outdated posts drafted but not yet completed. My plans to go into ppp (pay per post aka making money while blogging) also down the drain, no where near it yet! Work has partly to be blamed, hubby traveling more for work, weekend’s errands also and oh yea, motherhood too!

And speaking of motherhood, I’m at the verge of pulling all my hair out! A two year old is not easy to handle although I’ve received many feedbacks that my girl is such an angel…well, she behaves in public but definitely not at home! Sigh!

Several days ago, I see myself being the nagging mother again (yes, I’ve been in this mode since several months back) but this time it pushed me further to think twice (maybe like a zillion times) whether I want another baby!

That morning, hubby left for work earlier than us (although I was hoping he could take the girl to the daycare). Rye Li was hanging around in my room while I was getting ready for work. She took my clothes from my bed and threw them on the floor.

Upon seeing this, I told her that it not a very nice thing to do and asked her to pick it up and put it back on the bed. She refused. And so the threatening began….if she doesn’t put it back, she will go to her naughty corner….several times. After like the 5th time or so and she still refused, I took her to her naughty corner and left her there (she now doesn’t leave the place until I allow her to).

I went about doing my stuff and let her be, she didn’t let out a cry let alone a sound while she was there.

So when it was time to leave, I asked her one more time whether she’s going to help me put back the clothes on the bed and she said “I don’t want”. And out of the house I went without her. Once I closed the door, the girl started wailing!

I opened the door and she stopped, and so I asked her to go put on her shoes and she said “I don’t want”. And I closed the door again and this time I let her cry for awhile, well more like 15 seconds or so. And when I opened the door, I asked her to go wear her shoes and she went. This girl knows how to wear her shoes (the easy ones) but she asked me to wear it for her and I gave in.

After wearing her shoes, she refused to walk, wanting me to carry her. I was already fuming mad and I told her that she has to walk but she refused. So I told her fine, she can go back to her naughty corner and stay there alone at home. And out of the house I went again. And she was wailing louder this time when I closed the door. Again, I let her be for several seconds when I realized it was close to 9am and I will be very late for work as usual (I have been late for work lately no thanks to the girl).

My blood was boiling by this time when I opened the door, went in and grabbed her, smacked her bum several times (I rarely do this, probably less than 5 times so far) but it didn’t work, the girl didn’t even make a noise when I did. So she got an earful of me while I carried her out of the house and to the lift, telling her that I was very angry at her and as usual, I’m late for work because of her dilly-dallying (she knows this word as I’ve been using for several months now on her) and she is very naughty, throwing things down on the floor and not wanting to put them back, etc.

Once we got to the lift, she asked to walk and immediately after that, I realized why she wanted to walk. She asked for my car keys as she wanted to press on them to unlock my car (I’ve been using this trick to make her walk to and fro from the car). Because I was so angry by this time, I told her no and why I’m not letting her so and to add salt to the wound, I told her that she is not going to listen to her music in the car, in fact she was going to listen to my music. And she immediately put two of her hands to her head and said “Sorry mummy” many, many times. And I responded, “No, your sorry is not going to work this time because you need to be punished”. She went on “sorry mummy” all the way to the car while I was nagging her all that time.

I did feel guilty a little bit and I gave in to her pressing on my car keys except that I held on to the keys. Once inside the car, she did ask for her music and I gave her another round of nagging and why I’m not letting her listen to her music even after she started her “sorry mummy” thingy again.

She realized that I was not giving in this time and went about sucking her thumb and she was like that all the way to the daycare.

I called hubby on the way and gave him an earful of the story too and guess what his reply was?! “So, no need to have no. 2 la!”. Men! ….I was so angry that I told him “My point is, if you can send the girl to the daycare, please do so because I cannot afford to be late for work all the time!”. And he left it as that!

So yes, I’m still contemplating to have no. 2 or not…I don’t think I can do this all over again alone! I cannot tussle with a little kid all the time and I’m sorry for the girl that she’s testing my patience when I cant afford to be patient, like rushing to get work done or going to work. I need my sanity back!

And the irony of all this?! Well, I was missing the girl like mad when I was away for a night last weekend for my company trip, which was several days before she did this to me. It’s been nearly a year since I spent the nights away from her and that night would be the 5th time I’ve ever spent the nights away from her since she was born.

Ah….Motherhood! You just got to love it don’t you!

p.s. it took me 2 days just to finish this post! Sigh!

Saturday, January 05, 2008

Updates and stuff

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Happy New Year everybody! On a happier note, I am feeling much better now although my eye infection is still around. Thank you to all of you for your concerns in my well-being. The fever went away on New Year’s Day itself.

this picture was taken the day before my birthday, see how unwell i looked

the contents of my party packs that will be given out the kids at the daycare
helping mummy out to pack the party packs that weekend
the morning of my birthday in which I got to open my birthday presents before heading to the hospital!

Although I didn’t get to celebrate my birthday as planned, I still got to have a little fun that day. My Kai Yeh (Godfather) came over in the evening and spent some time with me. He even watched Finding Nemo with me!
We were not awake during the countdown. All of us were fast asleep although we heard the sounds of the fireworks outside at midnight but we were too tired to be bothered by it.

On Wednesday, I got to celebrate my belated birthday with the rest of the kids at Aunty Ng’s when Mummy and Papa dropped me off. I wasn’t in a good mood though and even my Tweety bird cake didn’t cheer me up. We celebrated outside of Aunty Ng’s place after which I played at the garden area.
everyone singing to me (and I was so grumpy)

aunty ng's passing me my present from her

with Jesslyn and Alvern. i was holding on to my present, refusing to let the others touch it

On other updates, my Terrible Twos are here to stay. I’ve been extra gluey to Mummy ever since I was ill and any little thing that upsets me, I will cry. Mummy gave into me when I was ill but the last few days, she just let me cry it out.

I don’t listen much to Mummy and Papa these days, doing what I fancy anytime. I will let them nag me over and over again and I like testing their patience. At times I get away with it but most times, I will be punished at my naughty corner when I get really out of hand or they will just let me cry it out.

I’ve also been really cheeky lately, nothing new here, I’m only learning it from Mummy as she likes to tease me all the time.

During one of the nights when I was having my high fever and both Mummy and Papa were trying to coax me into taking my fever medicine orally, I had to tell them over and over again “vomit” as I was afraid that I will vomit everything out. Since my “vomit” didn’t get the message across, I pointed out my index finger at them and move it from left to right and tell them “no-no”. They found it funny but still, they insisted I took the medicine. In the end, they won the battle as they threatened me with that thing that was supposed to go up my bum if I don’t take my medicine orally.

Last time, when you ask me who Rye Li is, I will put up my hand and say “me”. Now, depending on my mood, I will either say that or say “mummy”. Whatever questions you ask me these days, the answer will always be “mummy”. People find this funny but my answer is simple, I want people to know that the naughty one is Mummy and not me! And when Mummy or Papa scolds me, I will tell them that they are naughty for scolding me.

The other day, when Mummy asked me who Rye Li is and I answered “mummy”. She replied “Ok, I will call you Mummy now. Hello Mummy”. I replied “No-la, mummy is this” and I pointed to her.

I also like to point my finger at Mummy and say “stop it!” when she irritates me (like how she does to me). And when I want something, I will go “Give me NOW”. I will be reprimanded when I say these and will be reminded to say please. But can you blame me for saying these? I only learn from what I hear most of the time. Really!